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Graduation '12

2012-02-21T23:03:00.000+08:00

Graduation day !

Mum and Grandfather accompanied me go, kinda sad that we can only bring 2 guests go and no children under the age of 6 years old are allowed to go . Grandmother and my baby little sister have to stay at home ! :( Finally, i graduated from Nitec Office Skills . Going for Higher Nitec banking . :) 2 more years to go .We will be separated to different courses but one good thing is that we will still stay in Bishan and moving o AMK next year, im so freaking excited okay ! i dont know if i will regretted choosing banking . To be honest, i choose banking is because it have a better future, i wanted event . If there are still other choices for me to choose, i will choose early childhood but sad to say i cant choose this course because i dont have a O level cert . Just hope i will be able to cope in banking and faster go to poly . School holiday is ending, school is starting . I need to make new friends again . Im an anti social girl how am i going to make new friends again ? :'( Most importantly, how to find good friends like those people shown above ? Hopefully, i will get into the same class with Rina ! :)

Valentines day ! :)

2012-02-14T23:24:00.001+08:00

Spend my day with clique . :)

Without Yew Ching . :I

Ever since im back ...

2012-01-21T01:28:00.000+08:00

My sister is so damn the cute, i know ! ^^

It is going to be a long post, so bear with me .

Its been days i'm back from Australia . Family/Relatives/Friends all asking me, after one month over there, do i want to migrate ? I don't really know if i want or not . There are pros and cons . I remembered when i was young i thought to myself , i'm going to Australia to study or even migrate . I thought that will never happen to me . But the chance is here yet i don't know if i really want to migrate/study over there . Of course i have my reasons and i didn't tell anyone as i don't want to be a burden to people . Actually, the thought of migrating there and leave Singapore for good kinda freak me out, i have no idea why . I still have some photos that was taken in Australia and i have not uploaded it yet, as you know im a lazy girl . :x CNY is coming, i'm excited as ang baos are coming in . ^^ One sad thing is that after CNY i need to find a job ASAP ! BLAAA .

Ever since i'm back, i know some things that i shouldn't know . Okay, maybe its not things i shouldn't know , it just some problems that i don't really want to know . Before i fly to Australia, i know about it, its just that i don't really go bother about it as i didn't know so much . And after knowing the whole story, i feel upset over it . I'm going to trash everything out here . I don't know if you will read my blog or whatsoever and i don't know if you know im referring to you . And here goes, what kind of friend is that, that will compare you to other friends ? And the worst thing is that, compared it in front of you, right in your face . -.- Like seriously, before you starts to compare, did you think of our feelings ? Will you like it if we compare you ? Of course, we have different paths now and we don't have the rights to interfere you of making friends . You should really sit down and think of what we have done for you and what we have been through together for so many years . It seems like we are so easily replaced . Do you have any idea how pissed off/angry/hurt/upset we are ? We are upset not because we are being replaced and its because you compare us . The way you compare is so unbearable, it is way too much . True friends don't compare their friends . None of us compare you at all yet you did . We hope we will get back to those days like how we used to be . You may feel hurt after reading this post, you need to know we get hurt too . Sorry, if i offended you .

Been texting with J before i fly to Australia and ever since i'm back, we definitely got closer, maybe not . As we each have our problems to share, be there for each other . But there is just some things i find it hard to open up to him . Why is this so ? I find it amazing that J and i can be such good friends ! His first impression of me isn't that good, i think ? I forgotten how we starts to talk, text and everything . It seems like i was fated to dropped to Sec 4 NA is to meet this good friend of mine . ^^ Haha, i'm just kidding .

And as for you, my feelings have faded or maybe not ? i don't know . It just that you don't really affect me anymore and i'm quite glad about it . But there is one thing for sure, there will always be a part of me that will always love you . Since we have come to this state, i guess i shouldn't hope for anything . The only way to stay by your side is to be a friend . It is time for me to move on, like what J told me . I know its hard, but at least i will try to . I will not forget those memories that we have been through, at least those memories makes me smile whenever i think of them . They are awesome . Lastly, you are amazing, always .

Hi Singapore .

2012-01-16T23:09:00.001+08:00

Home Sweet Home .

Im back from Australia after 1 month of holiday there !

Last day of 2011 .

2011-12-31T08:56:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of 2011 . This year is pretty awesome ?

At least it is better than what i expected/thought .

And i am welcoming 2012 in Australia . ^^

2nd day in Australia !

2011-12-17T22:14:00.001+08:00

Today was the second day in Australia . Went shopping for the 2 days ! ^^ Everything now is so cheap and nice due to Christmas ! ^^ It is a great place to shop now ! Was on the plane alone for 8 hours, i was hoping that i dont have a sitting partner, or at least a chinese sitting partner but it turns out to be an ang mor . He is an ang mor, a super friendly one . I think i am too unfriendly until he is trying to think of conversation to talk to me to ease the awkwardness . As it was a 8 hours long flight, wont it be weird if we dont talk at all ? He super kind too ! HOHO . And my surroundings in the plane are all ang mors, only saw two families of 4 or 5 of chinese and they are sitting so far away me until i have no idea where they are sitting .

Those pictures above are the MRT in Australia . But the people call it train . I find the train and train station very interesting . ^^ It is so different from Singapore !

Tomorrow is a lazy sunday ! It is a stay home day ! Will be going to the park opposite our house to spot hot and handsome ang mors . ^^ Oh well, it is already 12.15 am now, 2 hours difference in Singapore, going to head to bed soon ! :) Goodnight, readers !

Opps, i just realized it is already after 12 am, so it is the 3rd day in Australia !

AUSTRALIA !

2011-12-14T18:50:00.001+08:00

Flying to Australia tomorrow .

Will be a loner for a total of 10 hours .

8 hours on the plane and 2 hours wandering in the airport after immigration.

And the truth is im kinda scare .

I guess its a time for me to be independent .

Holidays are here !

2011-12-02T00:48:00.001+08:00

Holidays are here ! Imagine im having 5 months of holidays ! shiok ttm . ^^ Will be flying to Australia in another 14 days, will be over there for 1 month ! AWESOME OKAY . Kinda worried that im going to take plane alone for the first time. But there is always a first time for everything right ?! Though its only the officially 2nd day of holiday, i have already planned my schedule ! Its going to be a busy holiday ! Thinking if i should work, as you know lazygirl here ! :x Went to watch movies for 2 days .

The apple of my eyes .

This show is awesome ! :) Should go and watch it .

You know you are the apple of my eyes all these years ! ^^

No one could replace you .

Breaking Dawn Part 1

Its sucks that i have to wait for another one more year to watch part 2 .

Im so excited for it .

I have deleted most of my past posts .

Grandma is 61th !

2011-11-20T02:02:00.001+08:00

A surprise birthday party !

We hope you enjoyed it, though there are some things happened in our family since May .

Though he wasnt here with you/us until another 3 years and 3 months.

Though he wasnt here to celebrate with you/us for 3 years and 3 months.

We know you miss him alot, we miss him too .

We will patiently wait for him to be out, to be with you/us again.

Lastly, Happy 61th birthday !

You know we love you and one thing for sure he loves you too . ^^

Screw it .

2011-11-16T18:19:00.001+08:00

6 years and 3 months is so damn long . :(

YEWCHING IS 17 !

2011-11-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, MY DEAR GIRL . ^^

Hope you enjoy yourself today !

-.-

2011-10-30T20:10:00.001+08:00

Just give me a break .

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Hurts .

2011-10-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

I thought i was well prepared for it . But i realized today, i wasnt prepared at all . I wonder why you create twitter in the first place . If that's the case, i rather you dont create twitter or just dont follow me . So at least, i wont find out things that i dont want to know . I told myself to be contented, but i always get greedy when it comes to you . Im too stubborn to move on . As i know that there will be no one like you out there . I wonder why im so attracted to you, its been 1 year and 9 months . The only way to stay at your side is to be your friend but i really to rewind the time back when we were that close . I keep blaming myself for taking you for granted . Im the one that cause us to be in this situation . And now, you took me for granted .

Their 17th .

2011-10-16T02:51:00.006+08:00

Happy 17th birthday ! ^^

Had BBQ @ RuYan's house .

Why ?

2011-09-30T21:21:00.004+08:00

Hot and Cold .

Thats your attitude towards me now .

Everything was fine until i accidentally forward you that message .

Once again, im really sorry .

Please dont treat me like this anymore .

Its torturing me . :c

你

2011-09-20T00:26:00.002+08:00

我真得好喜欢，好喜欢你。

Troubles away .

2011-09-13T22:35:00.002+08:00

Formal Wear today . It was fun . POA test was alright . ^^ Just another few more days to my 2 weeks holidays ! Excited much .

After school, went to meet HuiSi and XiuTing for dinner . ^^

MoonCake Festival . ^^

2011-09-12T23:04:00.001+08:00

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL !

A every year festival to spend with my lovely clique . ^^

Will be meeting them tomorrow too !

Girls .

2011-09-11T21:45:00.004+08:00

Sudden cravings for J.Co donuts when i wake up this morning and so i text my clique asking if they want to go and eat . But dear XiuTing was in Malaysia and YewChing has no money, so only HuiSi and Ruyan came with me . ^^ After having J.CO donuts, i/we have cravings for New York New York too . So we went to parkway to eat ! Had an awesome chit chatting session . Will be meeting clique tomorrow for Mooncake Festival .

This festival reminds me of you, we quarreled last year on mooncake festival and you made me cry without you knowing . But im glad you gave in to me after you know im really very hurt . ^^

:(

2011-09-07T22:30:00.003+08:00

Received your letter today . When Uncle William was reading it for the whole family to listen . My tears cant stop dropping . To me, you are like pretending to be happy and with your life inside that place . Just a moment ago, Mum asked me do i have a picture of you alone . I realised that i didnt have a picture of you alone and i didnt take a picture with you before, other than the one above . You have been away from us for 4 months . :c The whole family miss you like crazy . No matter how many years you will be in there, we will be waiting for you back with your sense of humor . Waiting for your jokes and everything . We love you, always .

Did you ?

2011-09-05T19:50:00.001+08:00

You didnt change, i guess ?

You are still that guy i know, caring and everything .

But somehow or somewhat, i feel that you kinda change .

I dont know how to explain either . :I

A day out with them .

2011-09-02T23:48:00.002+08:00

Teachers Day .

2011-09-01T22:55:00.009+08:00

A HAPPY DAY TODAY . ^^

舍不得

2011-08-30T17:13:00.002+08:00

第一次你陪我坐著
我的手心是空空的
我知道那些簡訊聲你努力藏著害怕我難過

不追問到底為什麼是我最後的溫柔
想笑著附和說分開是好的
但我們卻怎麼一起哭了

我捨不得可是時間回不去了 - yes, i dont bear, but cant rewind time . :(
愛你很值得只是該停了 - yes, love you was worth it but i didnt stop loving you, until now .
沒有我你要好好的

我捨不得最後一次抱緊你了
我們錯過的錯了就錯了
不用擔心我我不愛你了 - i still love you ...

不追問到底為什麼是我最後的溫柔
想笑著附和說分開是好的
但我們卻怎麼一起哭了

我捨不得可是時間回不去了
愛你很值得只是該停了
沒有我你要好好的 - Seems like with or without me, doesnt make any difference in your life now .

我捨不得最後一次抱緊你了
我們錯過的錯了就錯了
不用擔心我我不愛你了

至少你記憶裡的我是微笑的
親愛的有你牽著我的那些日子
真的好快樂

我捨不得可是時間回不去了
愛你很值得只是該停了
沒有我你要好好的

我捨不得最後一次抱緊你了
我們錯過的錯了就錯了
不用擔心我我走了

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htlUdPZy_wU&feature=related

I miss those days .

2011-08-29T22:17:00.004+08:00

- I miss those days that you will stay awake to accompany me to burn midnight oil .

- I miss those days that i will stay awake to accompany you to burn midnight oil.

- I miss those days that you will morning call me to wake me up at 4.30 am for gb, then you will go back to sleep and wake up at 6 plus for school .

- I miss those days that you will spot check on me if im really studying .

- I miss those days that you will give me a wake up call in the afternoon to study after letting me sleep for a few hours .

- I miss those days that we keep bickering and you will never give in to me, unless im really angry . And you know i will always give in to you, always .

- I miss those days that you purposely make me angry .

- I miss those days that we text everyday until you / i fall asleep .

- I miss those days that you will give me morning/goodnight texts .

- I miss those days that i will text you super long messages often with all my heartfelt words regarding you, but its just never that 3 words .

- I miss those days that you will ask me to trust you with my secrets .but do you know, i always trust you ?

- I miss those days that i will turn to you whenever im sad, angry, or anything . I will just tell you everything about my life, every single bit .

- I miss those days that you will tell me your secrets .

- I miss those days that you will think of ways to cheer me up whenever im sad or angry .

- I miss those days that you will always brighten up my day .

- I miss those days that you will promise me stuffs and of course you did fulfill some and break some though .

- I miss those days that you will tell me some lame stuffs that make me laugh/smile at my phone .

- I miss those days that you told me you dont want to delete our messages . i bet you dont know, i dont delete your messages at all .

- I miss those days that you keep asking me for sweets, but i purposely dont want to give you . But, i really want to give you though . :I but, i did give you once ! :)

- I miss those days that you will purposely gl to me .

- I miss those days that you will give me comforting words .

- I miss those days that you will force me to study .

- I miss those days that you will keep asking me to eat medicine whenever im sick . Asking me to sleep early and rest well . And of course, i listen to you to everything and everytime .

- I miss those days that you know im scare of something, you will be there for me .

- I miss those days that we went study together .

- I miss those days that you will jealous whenever i talk about boys . But do you know, i get jealous whenever you are having tuition and some outings with friends ? You like seeing your girl -friends for like the whole day ? Same school, same class, same tuition . :I of course, i know there are boys around too, but i cant help it . Jealousy kills .

- I miss those days that i will go to your CCA . i will just sit there and keep looking at you . LOL, i know im dumb .

- I miss those days that you know i burnt until my finger and you get so worried .

- I miss those days that you are scared whenever i cry .

- I miss those days that you will disturb me with my secrets .

- I miss those days that you will scold me for being lazy .

You gave me far too much memories .

There are more memories .

Im looking forward to this thursday .

GMSS .

2011-08-26T20:11:00.012+08:00

I cant find my sec 1 and sec 2 class photos . :( 3 years being in Express class . I miss those times, really . They were friends that i knew since im kindergarten . but mostly is when im in primary school . I cant find my primary school photos. 10 years of friendships with the same batch of friends, so much fun, laughters and joy . 10 years of memories . :(

My last of year in GMSS is when im in an NA class . This class of people were awesome too . They seen my weak side always . :I I asked them what is their first impression of me and they all have the same impression . Saying that im unfriendly and dao . Jerry's first impression of me is really damn jokes . After hearing those impressions, i think back and thinking why im so unfriendly . I think it is because im reluctant to drop to NA, but come to think, who will be happy to drop to NA after being 3 years in express ? It was supposedly to be last year for me taking O level and graduate, but who knows everything is ruined . But still, i enjoyed my last year in GMSS . :)

I miss my secondary school life . :(

IOE .

2011-08-25T18:58:00.003+08:00

I love this class . (L)

ASSHOLE .

2011-08-23T19:13:00.002+08:00

WHY DO I HAVE SUCH A FUCKED UP PATERNAL FAMILY ?

Im kinda happy that i have a broken family .

Catch up !

2011-08-20T20:07:00.002+08:00

A last minute decision to meet up with this 2 girls !

Had a fun time catching up on each other lives .

Its been a long time since we met and have fun like this .

I miss those days .

You know what, i dont really care about what you think anymore .

But still, i love you .

Im a lousy friend .

2011-08-18T18:47:00.005+08:00

I find myself a lousy friend towards Jerry . Whenever im sad or what, he will be there for me, consoling me . I still remembered how he was there for me when i know i didnt do well for my N level, rather not you were the one there for me . I was too upset and everything . But he keep on trying to cheer me up . Promised to buy my favorite sweets for me to cheer me up . Whenever i cry, he knows how to make me laugh/smile . Whenever i told him about you, he will 'scold' me by telling me to move on . But now, when you are down, i realised i dont know how to coax you . :( im a lousy friend arent i ? :(

(L)

2011-08-12T20:37:00.000+08:00

No one can replace you, love .

I miss you .

2011-08-11T20:44:00.007+08:00

Yea, i miss you as always . I still remember how i was in love with you . It happen in the beginning of sec 3 . I always find myself dumb for not noticing you when we were 5 years old . We were in the same school then . :( And then we were in the same primary school, finally we were in the same class in Primary 5 and 6 . But at that time, i still didnt really notice you . I only know you were a super quiet boy . I didnt talk to you at all . Heard rumours that you like me, but at that time my reaction was like so so so pissed off by it as im still young mar . Now seriously i regretted feeling that way . :( Suddenly, you add me on msn, but you never talk to me once and i wasnt keen on talking to you too . I also dont know why my phone got your number since we never text. Even when the whole class was playing, we didnt communicate. It was only when we were in Secondary school and i started noticing you. Sec 1, we met while we were walking home and i was telling my friend about you and thats it. Sec 2, my reaction was like oh, its you and nothing at all. But it was in Sec3, then i truly notice you. I started to look at like you everytime, before and after school and during recess. Our classrooms are just beside each other, i will always purposely walked past your classroom just to take a look at you. i know i sound so dumb . Come to think of it, i often wonder why i so stupid . Soon after, i started to tell all my best friends about you. One of my friend persuade me to talk you but i realised you changed your number . So my friend went to ask your close friend and the conversation goes like this :

My friend : He got like someone ?

Your friend: why ? someone interested in him ?

My friend: yea, one of our friend .

Your friend: Is it Tris ?

My friend: OMG, how you know ?

Your friend: haha, he told me that tris keep looking at him .

Upon hearing this, i was like dumbfounded . You did notice me looking at you. :I i was so nervous and scare ! i keep wondering how you know . And today it is still a mystery . In the beginning of Feb, my friends keep asking me to give you V day present, your friend persuaded me to give too. I was reluctant in the first place, but in the end, i gave . I still remember i made 3 heart shape of mango pudding in a blue box for you, not to forget a letter . I passed it to you on 10 feb and not the actual day, cause we were having sec 3 camp from 11 feb to 13 feb . but obviously, i didnt give it myself, your friend did the job.

During sec 3 camp, i admit i will always look for you in the crowd . and there you were super close with this girl and of course im jealous . its normal reaction . :I It was on 14 feb then i got the the courage to text you, monster helped me to get our number . :I i still can remember how our conversation were like and it sucks seriously.

Me: hi

you: you are?

Me: Triscilla, can we be friends ? (i sound really dumb as we were already friends but just didnt talk at all.)

you: o

I was so damn pissed off by your reply . WHAT DOES YOU O STANDS FOR ? -.- and so, i didnt reply ar all . I waited for a few more weeks then decided to text you again, i feel so shameless. :( i asked you were the mango pudding nice ? and you say yes . Even now, im still thinking if you really did eat the puddings . All the replies are all one word , which make it super obvious that you didnt want to text with me. And one of your friend told that you will feel irritated when i text you and i too feel so damn angry too . So i didnt text you at all except on your birthday. Whenever i saw your fb, i didnt dare to add, but on 20 April 2010 you added me . i was like so super duper happy and a bit of confusions . i didnt know why you add me. it was like i waited for more than 1 year plus before you added me on fb. At that time, i was wondering should i wish you happy birthday and so i did.

Your birthday were a day before our mid year exam starts . we were having night study in school . i saw you and i know you saw me. So when we were going home, i took this chance to text you, wishing you happy birthday and of course good luck for your exam. And i thought we will just end the conversation soon. But i didnt expect you to think of topic to continue the conversation and i rememebered i telling you, you changed, are you sure this is you? and you replied its me . :) i was so happy at that time . from that day on we started texting everyday . i was the one that took the initiative to text you, but slowly, we exchange roles . People thought we were couple . How great if that was true ? :( i dont know if you sensed that i love you all along, but you too treat me different by the way you treat other girls, at least that is what i feel. or, just take it that im thinking too much. :I

You asked me alot of times why i treated you so good ? i didnt tell you why, as im afraid of losing you. and so i kept quiet about it . I miss the way you purposely make me angry, pissed off and everything . I miss the way you will call me to wake me up to study . i miss the way you will make me to trust you. i miss the way how we used to tease each other. i miss the way how you will promise me stuffs and fulfil it and of course you did break some . :( i miss the way you will action to my friend that i treat you better than them, the incident about the sweet . :) I just miss everything about you and the times we had. i still have the birthday card that you did for me . :)

first movie - Jumper . of course is in a group !

first cinema - Marina Square . big group of course !

first fastfood - long john sliver at Singpost.

I always think im not good enough for you . As i dropped to sec 4 NA . And you were that smart, seriously. Even maybe im still in Express Class last year and we graduated from poly, i still think im good enough for you. Even worst, i didnt do well for my N level and i know i disappointed you. I just feel that we were like so apart. but you know, you were just that amazing, at least to me. :) Even until now, you were amazing too . :)

But now, everything is gone .

Love this girl !

2011-08-10T17:25:00.000+08:00

She can stands now ! :)

:)

2011-08-05T23:26:00.009+08:00

Watched Captain America @ Illuma - Shopping @ Bugis Street - Dinner @ Mos Burger - Photos - Home Sweet Home .

They are going back to Australia .

2011-08-01T20:43:00.033+08:00

Today is the last day that my mum and sister in Singapore . Of course, they will be back again , during Chinese New Year for 2 months . ^^ They will reach in 8 hours time from now . My dear retard YewChing accompany me go and send them off . I hope XiuTing be jealous of those photos that she took with my sister, Elena . HEHE . ^^v After going to the airport, YewChing came my house and we do some retard stuffs . :x my retardness are all her fault, she influence me . HEHE . But still, i love her la !

I miss you. I miss the way you disturb me, making of me. I miss the way how you were there for me when i didnt do well for my N level. I miss the way you were angry when you know some bitch bully me. I miss the way how you protect me. I know the next following years of Chinese New Year you wont be with us physically . But you know, the whole family are here with you, no matter how many years. We love you, always.

My dear luckystar, i know you are always there for me . :) Thank you so much . Im sorry for keeping things to myself nowadays . I miss you too, I know we have not been meeting much this year . So make sure find one day and we meet up okay ! I need time to open up with someone . Give me more time and i will tell you what is going on okay . (L) . And you know, im always here for you too, alright ! ^^

I know you guys are here for me too . Thanks so much for being there for me, especially since last year when i received my N level results and this year of what is happening in my family. Thanks so much, really . I love you girls and i always do . We really got to start planning on our clique outing already ! :)

Like what Mr Hee told me that day, I have my crazy friends around me . :) Started school 7 months ago, i made new friends. And these people up there gave me lots of laughters too. I didnt expect myself to cry that day in school. But i just cant help it, was telling Mr Hee how i really feel and what is exactly happening to me. And out of sudden, my tears just dropped . Mr Hee told me i was cheerful for the last 7 months, and all these thanks to you guys for making feel cheerful on the outside.

Tears .

2011-07-29T17:23:00.002+08:00

Who will be the one that tell me this ?

I dont feel right .

2011-07-22T21:55:00.001+08:00

I asked myself once again,

'Why was i born into this world?'

Shopping and lunch @ AMK .

2011-07-13T21:09:00.004+08:00

Went to meet my Mum, Angelina Yi Yi, Sister and Geraldine for shopping session and lunch .

Had Dian Xiao Er ! I love the food over there, seriously !!

Jesse McCartney .

2011-07-10T01:17:00.004+08:00

Just so you know .

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pts-t0mGEYE

This song totally reflect on my feelings . :I

How nice if you were here too .

2011-07-09T22:46:00.015+08:00

Had crabs for dinner tonight . I wont say its a family dinner, as some of our family members were not there . But still, we have a good time eating and catching up on each other lives . If everyday including ALL family members were here, was to be like that, it will be awesome, really very awesome .

School is starting soon . Tomorrow is going to be my last day of holiday . :(

I dont know why .

2011-07-07T19:50:00.003+08:00

I dont know why i feel that im a failure, or maybe i am really a failure . Too much thoughts are running in my mind, i dont know how to express out . People often says im a cheerful girl, they never expect me to cry in front of them . Well, cheerful on the outside not on the inside . Who could really understand me ? I have so much things that are kept within me, who really see that ? Who really know im really a very unhappy girl ? Who could really ask me what is truly happening in my life ? i often cry at night because those things hurts like hell and that is only the time that people dont know you are crying . I find myself really good at pretending - pretend to be like a carefree, happy - g0 - lucky girl . i dont really love my life nor hate my life . i often wonder why was i born ? If my life were to be in full of misery, i rather i was not born .

Let me tell you :

- Im not a happy girl .

- I have tons of thoughts and unhappiness within me .

- I often cry at nights before going to bed .

Lastly, im a failure, i mean it .

They are back ! ^^

2011-07-04T20:41:00.009+08:00

My Mummy and Sister are back in Singapore on 1 july ! (L)

Miss them alot !

But sad to say, they will only be here for 1 month . :(

Sentosa !

2011-07-01T21:22:00.003+08:00

Went sentosa today with HuiSi !

It was really very relax ! :)

IOE Chalet ! ^^v

2011-06-30T15:08:00.011+08:00

27 June to 29 June 2011 .

Fun on the second day . :)

YACHT !

2011-06-25T19:01:00.010+08:00

Went out with Luckystar, sharmaine and her family! We went to yacht ! FUN MAX OKAY ! Played until damn tired now . i hope we could have more of this kind activites ! i hope to have a yacht of my own, but its kinda impossible . i dont have the money ! :( i feel that my this time holiday is damn awesome ! had alot of activites filled up ! (L)

Im so weak .

2011-06-23T20:39:00.006+08:00

Im sick again . :(

Met Nurul for lunch at tm today . Passed her my present for her birthday and she passed me my presents from jerry and her . AND AND AND i really (L) the presents !! HEHEHEHE . Had an enjoyable day today . IO E chalet is coming soon ! Starting to feel damn excited now ! And my mum is going to back in Singapore ! Miss her ! :(

Memories .

2011-06-15T23:54:00.003+08:00

I miss my secondary school life . :'c After all spending 10 years in GM having your friends around you for 10 years . Who wouldnt miss that ? 10 years of memories that you cant forget . The joy, fun and laughters . Even some saddness, i miss them though . I will be going back to GM with WeiXin next Tuesday. ^^ I dont know why i feel weird about it . :I Hopefully, Miss Rabiah will be there . ^^ I miss her so muchhhhh ! :'c

Cool right ? ^^

2011-06-14T16:40:00.003+08:00

A total of 146 photos of everyone in my life . (L)

(L) them ! ^^v

2011-06-12T00:00:00.003+08:00

They came my house and accompany me for the whole day today as i will be alone ! :(

Steamboat - Wii - Camwhore - Webcam .

Fun ttm !

Sad that YewChing is not here today ! :(

Thanks girls ! :)

Happy 65th birthday ! (L)

2011-06-05T20:53:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 65TH BIRTHDAY ! (L)

LOVE YOU FOREVER . :)

Surprise party with loopholes ! C:

2011-06-05T00:30:00.003+08:00

They came to my house door today . ^^ i turned 17 already, time flies . Thank you, guys so much for everything, really . (L) and, i got my new phone ! hehehe, happygirl.com and of course im still sadgirl.com regardless that its my birthday today . i just hope everything will be okay, which i know its kinda impossible . :C last but not least, you texted me + wish me on fb . i wish i have time machine, so i could rewind to old times, so that we will still be texting right now, every day, every minute, every seconds .

:'c

2011-05-27T21:35:00.001+08:00

Please be okay . Please, please .

HOW ?

2011-05-19T16:18:00.006+08:00

I think i have a crush on you .

should i feel happy, sad or worried ?

:I

2011-05-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

was wecamming with this girl up here . she must love me more ! despite that im sick, i still webcam with, just to kill her boredness ! such a good girl i am right ? HEHEHEHEHE . didnt attend school today, feel kinda weird . :I i dont know why either . >: anway, will be going back to school tomorrow and here comes my weekends . C: Will be meeting HuiSi and WeiLin tomorrow ! Miss her ttm ! long time no see heer liao . :'C

TAGS REPLIES :

XiuTing, go download !

SO CUTE RIGHT ?!

2011-05-08T20:36:00.004+08:00

MY KANAME IS SO THE CUTE RIGHT, I KNOW !

I LOVE IT TTM !

Tags Replies :

HuiSi : not often . ^^

Jerry, OMG, how you stalk until here ?!

Happy 17th Birthday, luckystar ! ^^

2011-05-06T21:13:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY !

hope you enjoy alright ! (L)

Love you ttm laaaa ! ^^

Life is pretty awesome nowadays .

2011-04-22T14:04:00.006+08:00

Went to meet this Nurul for lunch yesterday ! it was a nice catching up ! ^^ talked so much things that we keep laughing and laughing non-stop . I seriously miss Hope 4-1B or rather Hope 4-2 now, well except a bitch . :x Will be going back to gm in may, after i have done all my school projects !

in the evening, went to meet this bunch of people up in that photo ! a farewell party for paige ! sorry for the blurness, as my hands were shaking at that time due to laughters . :I Pop@central always give me laughters without fail . they will let me forget my troubles for that few hours whenever we are together . Had a lot of craps yesterday with them, we are like the noisest table at Hans ! :S anyway, i (L) them ttm ! ^^v

i love it ! ^^

2011-04-10T21:27:00.002+08:00

I <3 this picture up here ! ^^

taken these polaroids at wild wild wet yesterday with my beloved clique ! <3

had so much fun . ^^

anyway, school starts tomorrow . :(

A great day !

2011-03-23T15:25:00.002+08:00

Went HPV & Sentosa with this girl up here ! Was like walking for the whole day ! fun much ! ^^ We are going to tour the whole singapore one fine day ! it will be very fun ! ^^ and now, im having muscleache . :I tskkk . im having flu right now ! :( i skipped latin dance today . :I will be meeting WeiKian, Joanna and Rina for steamboat later . hope that my flu will be gone by then !

Little sister of mine . ^^

2011-03-03T19:16:00.002+08:00

ELENA E RU HUI . ^^

Like totally .

2011-02-25T17:02:00.001+08:00

Like, always .

First NC16 movie ! ^^v

2011-02-19T20:34:00.005+08:00

After 9 months of being 16 years old, finally i went to watch an NC16 show ! ^^ Am i too slow what ? Went to watch with RuYan and HengLee, Alan was not able to make it . :I Anyway, 127 hours is a great show afterall, maybe i am interested in true stories just like reading true stories . ^^

I watched love letters to juliet too, on my itouch . :x this show is like so long ago and i downloaded for months ! I just did not have the chance to watch it . :x it was a nice show ! ^^ happy ending of course . ^^

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

2011-02-06T13:41:00.003+08:00

I find this year New Year kinda boring . :x dont know why angbaos also kinda lesser than past few years . :( BOO . the photo up there are taken on the second day of CNY . clique went to my house to bai nian . ^^ i enjoyed my these 4 days of CNY . and what ? tomorrow back to school . :( sighzxz . will be going to relatives to bai nian and this time round i hope that im not lazy to go . :( will be meeting lini in the evening for shopping ! I WANT SHOPPINGGG ! ^^

When will you be back ?

Its all you .

2011-02-01T20:37:00.006+08:00

I love you .
I miss you.
I want you to text me.
I want you to scold me to eat medicine.
I want you to care for me like you always did.
I want you to take initiative to text me.
I want you to gl with me.
I want you to purposely make me angry at times.
I want you to cheer me up whenever im sad.
I want you to tell me that everything is fine.
I want you to tell me to trust you.
I want you to tell me more secrets about you.
I want you to keep asking me to study.
I want you to give me morning call.
I want you to spot check me if i did study.
I want you to ask me to sleep early whenever im not feeling well.
I just want you in my life.
Lastly, i want you.

sucks .

2011-01-03T10:50:00.000+08:00

guess what, it sucks, like totally .

Im afraid .

2010-12-13T21:33:00.004+08:00

getting back results this friday . :x im afraid how i will score, as in what if i fail and i cannot promote to sec 5 ? then what shall i do ? go ITE ? :( i dont wish to go there . not saying ITE not good, its just that i will waste another couple of years . i want to go poly and the course of early childhood and go uni and come out to work as a kindergarten teacher ! ^^v

what if i really do ?

A day spent with clique . ^^v

2010-12-07T21:29:00.005+08:00

went out today to celebrate huisi's 16th birthday .

it is an early celebration, as im going to work on her birthday . :(

photos will be on fb . ^^v

no way that im falling into the trap .

control yourself, triscilla . ^^v

happy girl .

2010-11-13T15:38:00.004+08:00

-Post deleted-

due to some personal reason . ^^

WORK = $$$ IN YOUR POCKET .

2010-11-06T22:29:00.004+08:00

Started work 3 days ago . Everything is alright ? learnt alot of stuffs and of course make new friends . ^^ A bunch of sweet girls and funny boys ! ^^ BUT, im kinda scare of my manger . she looks fierce ! and heard from my colleague that she was fiercer last time, which means she is fierce now ! :( im like worried . she said she will test me of what i learnt these few days . :S i hope i will answer her questions . when my i get my pay on 26, I WILL START ON MY SHOPPING LIST ALREADY ! ^^ HAPPY MAX, though this work is very tiring . :(

BUSY BUSY .

2010-10-27T14:04:00.004+08:00

Going for interview later .

if it is succesful, will start work on thurs till 28 Dec . ^^

I will be very busy and totally no time for other stuffs .

As the working hour is quite long, it will be worst on Friday and weekends .

BUT, i will still have time for you, because its you . ^^

LOST .

2010-10-23T17:28:00.002+08:00

I never felt this way . i dont know what am i feeling at times . i dont know what i want at times too . Just what is wrong with me ? I should feel happy, shouldnt i ? N levels are over, is a party time for me ! I SHOULD FEEL HAPPY, EXCITED . But, im not . isnt it funny ? Is it because of you ? but why you ? i dont understand . You did nothing to make me feel sad or what, in fact, you brightens up my day . Maybe, is because i pin my hopes high and it fall right down . This two days, i learnt not to pin my hopes high - its because of a stupid reason . i hate myself for feeling this way . i wonder what if i die, what will you do, feel ? i wonder what if i told you i love you, what will react ? i dont think i will be getting my answers . i told myself to be understanding as you are a busy guy, forever busy . You have no time for me at all, or its just that few hours . :I i should be contented that you have that few hours for me . i should be happy that you learnt to take initiative, but maybe you do this to other girls too ? Compared to other girls, i know nothing about you . They know more about you . Im not afraid of admitting that im jealous . you just didnt know that you are too popular with girls . Maybe im just a nobody in your life . I always said that it will be the last time, whenever i mean it, you will melt my heart . :I tell me what you want me to do . You are a smart guy . i know you know that ily . you just pretending . forcing me to say ? :I i dont know what you are thinking, seriously . or is it i think too much ?

:(

2010-10-22T10:00:00.002+08:00

I hate the feelings that i am having now .

Happy 16th Birthday to Xiu Ting ! (L)

2010-10-17T22:19:00.011+08:00

Went out to celebrate XiuTing's birthday ! LIKE FINALLY, she is 16 ! ^^ Went Ikea and hope that she enjoyed today ! (L) It will be more fun after Os ! ^^ Sad that HuiSi is unable to make it . :( Pictures; credit to luckystar ! (L)

It was fun !

2010-10-15T20:01:00.012+08:00

im back from chalet . Im so tired ttm . The days that i spent in chalet, i only have less than 8 hours of sleep . T-T pathetic for a pig like me, but it was fun though, so its all worth it ! ^^ On the first day, i have a serious bad headache . :( thanks for my class boys that went all the way, which is really really SUPER FAR, to help me buy medicines ! ^^ tyvm really ! Had a lot of bonding session with my class, especially on the last day !^^ I never regret going ! ^^ Let the photos do the talking, i will only upload some for now . im lazy . :x AND, some of photos, i did not rotate and it is not in sequence. :x

All the photos in this post are all credit to Ng Wee Kiat . ^^

There will be more to come and other events of photos too ! ^^

Its over ! ^^

2010-10-12T11:40:00.007+08:00

HAPPY ! ^^v

I kinda cannot believe that its over already . :x

Like finally, im free ? ^^

But sad to say, i still got one more year to go . :(

Will be going to chalet from tomorrow to friday . ^^

Will be uploading photos if im not lazy . :x

Just another 4 days . ^^

2010-10-07T19:11:00.005+08:00

If love is everywhere ...

Hang on, Triscilla . ^^
Just a few more days to go .

Just one last paper to go .

JY, Tris ! ^^

2010-10-01T20:21:00.009+08:00

Just a few more days to go and im free for the whole of this year . ^^

AND, it will be a playtime of me ! ^^

BUT still, it isnt a good year for me . :I

Will upload photos soon of many events that are happening now ! ^^

I cannot upload now, because my adaptor spoilt . T-T

TAGGIES~

Weixin- (Y)

SharmaineTok- :P I LOVE IT . ^^

RuYan- HELLO, LUCKYSTAR ! (L)

STXY .

2010-09-19T20:07:00.003+08:00

SHARMAINE TOK XI YUN .
I still have more photos of her !
Only that im lazy to upload only !
WAHAHAHAHA . ^^

TAGGIES~

WeiXin - ^^

SharmaineTok- LOL ! ^^ I KNOW YOU LOVE MY THIS POST THE MOSTTTT ! ^^ (Y)

I want to pour out everything !

2010-09-16T17:56:00.013+08:00

Been thinking a lot these few days . thinking of what is going to be my life next year, without my awesome friends with me . Not saying that my class friends are not awesome . To be frank, Hope 41B, you guys give me a feeling that i never felt before when im in Faith34 . And it is a good feeling . ^^ i dont know how to explain it in words . :x Maybe is because you guys are just another bunch of friends that are special in some ways that i never mixed with . ^^ You people are GREAT too ! ^^ But, i still miss my friends . I miss those times we had ! :( Always chit-chatting in class, play games and everything ! Whenever i walked past Faith44, i wish im in the class too ! Seeing how much fun and stressed that they had, i want a part of it too . But it is useless to say and think anymore . i already dropped . Just face the fact, Triscilla ! its been 9 months since im in Hope41B . And i realised that Hope41B always seen my weak side, or maybe im just not a strong girl . :I Im a girl that always want friends by my side, always . but sometimes, i want to be alone too, that is what i wish to be when im in poly . I know im weird . i dont know what i want either . :I i hate to be a crybaby in front of others . i dont know since when my tears are so easily dropped . :(

i should be happy with my life, shouldnt i ? Cause ....

i have a WARM FAMILY with me, who supported me . They did not scold me for dropping to NA . i know that they are disappointed in me and everything . Even cried with me when i cried . Keep encouraging me all these while . And i hope nothing will go wrong this time, please . (L)

i have a AWESOME CLIQUE - A.HuiSi, C.YewChing, L.XiuTing and S.RuYan with me . A bunch of 4 girls that are always with me, without fail . We play, cried and almost do everything together ! ^^ though we had a small misunderstanding during the month of may or june ? but we cleared it up soon after ! ^^ and nothing changes between us . we are still bonded and everything . ^^ you girls are leaving soon ! ^^ i know we will be very busy with our lifes soon ! but once a clique, will always be a clique, isnt it ? ^^ JYs for your Os ! LETS WORK HARDDDD ! ^^ (L)

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I dont have some of your photossss . :( AND sorry if you think the photo is small .

it is be largest than i can give ! :I

i have WONDERFUL FRIENDS - Adeon.N, Isabelle.H, Jancinta.Q, Kelvin.L, L.YunCui, L.Weixin, Sharmaine.T and W.KinHarng and many more . im just naming some that are always with me . ^^ Thanks for lending me your ears whenever i need . Thanks for motivating me to study, especially Adeon.N, L.YunCui and W.KinHarng . ^^ Without you guys by my side, i wont know what to do either ! JYS for your Os and Ns ! ^^ LETS MUG HARD TOGETHERRR ! ^^ (L)

I have a GREAT CLASSMATES last year, which are still my friends now, Faith34/44 ! Thanks for those memories that you guys gave to me . ^^ The times we spent together were really very fun ! ^^ JYS for your Os okay ! ALL THE BESTTT ! ^^ (L)

Sorry if you think the size is small, it is the largest that i can give ! :(

lastly, i have a NICE CLASSMATES this year, Hope41B . ^^ i admit that starting of this year, i dont really like this class . i always compare you guys with Faith34/44 . Im deeply sorry . :( after spenting 9 months time with you people, i realised that you guys people are just friends that i like . ^^ Especially, Haziqah and Nurul ! ^^ These two girls always cheer up my day and always have fun together ! ^^ This class is full of jokes and everything . ^^ Lets JY for Ns together and promote to sec 5 ! ^^ (L)

it was great pouring out everything from the bottom of my heart ! ^^

Time, please stop .

2010-09-09T15:44:00.003+08:00

Its such a long way to go .

N just over, yet 2nd half of prelims coming in just 5 days ?! Why is my life so busy ?! After prelims, another half of N coming again ! :S I screw up my chinese paper 1 . Compo OUT OF POINT . T-T My A gone already . I hope bell curve will pull me up, seriously ! :( The rest of the papers were okay . ^^ but i still cannot forgot my chinese paper 1 . T-T

Half day in school .

2010-08-31T18:29:00.003+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY !

Spent a half-day in school today .

The celebration is kinda boring, so sorry to say that .

Went to visit Primary School to visit some old teachers . ^^

Surprisely, they still remind me after for 4 years !

Going to watch movie, Step up 3, tomorrow with luckystar, Sharmaine and Kelvin . ^^

Happy and Sad .

2010-08-26T17:22:00.005+08:00

Both different feelings in my heart .

This few weeks wasnt a good week for me, but somehow, it is too . ^^v

I sprained my leg today . :(

BOO !

2010-08-22T13:15:00.006+08:00

COUNTDOWN - 15 MORE DAYS TO GO .

I cannot believe that when people are going to enjoy their Sept holiday, yet im going to have my major papers ! T-T

BOO !

Went study with Huisi yesterday . Saw two girls, which looked like Les, doing some weird actions that the both of us cannot stand it . TSK TSK TSK . Like finally the two girls are gone, came a bunch of women and girls . They are responsible for the noise pollution ! They shout and laught like nobody business . Whats more worst it that one of them know im unhappy, yet she did nothing . -.-

Its still buried in my mind .

2010-08-19T19:30:00.005+08:00

It still hurts, but i believe it will heal .

Thank you, Mrs Chng . Thanks for giving me motivations .

i will stand up from where i fall, i promised .

I pass my POA and my chem, i was very surprised ! ^^v is like is my first time passing it . ^^v i feel so happy ! ^^v It gives me a sense of achievement . Needa study for my SS now !

Mixed Feelings .

2010-08-18T21:41:00.004+08:00

Sad, Happy, Worry & Bored .

Exams are just less than 2 weeks time ! im so worried . T-T ! GG . Hope i can do well ! Wish me luck ! ^^v

BUSY .

2010-08-10T12:43:00.003+08:00

Today's activities: Tm with Yew Ching to buy pencil case - Pasir Ris with Yew Ching to buy backbag and study - Ru Yan's house for tuition .

Tomorrow: SCHOOL FOR EXAMS AND LESSON - HOME . :( Will be having prelims this whole week and i'm not so well prepared . :( English paper tomorrow . GG . not feeling too good over it . :I But still, wish me luck ! ^^v

Life ?

2010-08-01T12:34:00.004+08:00

Oral on next Tuesday, which is just 2 more days . :S Im still not ready yet . Having sore throat at the wrong time . Dear throat, please recover before Tuesday, I needa depend on you for my oral, you know ? After oral, comes my prelims . :( This year is so packed and busy, i think next year too . :( Triscilla, you got to buck up ! My daily routine, Home - School - Home - School - Home - School ! No other time for me to go shopping, play or whatever that last few years that i did . :( Just bear with it for a few months, i told myself~

^^v

2010-07-23T13:58:00.007+08:00

I'm getting this phone, only that it is red in colour ! ^^v

Will be MIA from now . It is going to be a busy year for me . Maybe, i want to close down my blog . i'm still considering though . ^^v BYE~

TAGGIES~

VivianToh- HEY. I can see you drinking the black water once again! TEEHEE.

Triscilla- LOL ! its a nice drink ! ^^v

Addicted .

2010-07-01T19:06:00.003+08:00

Sometime i have the urge to ask you stuffs regarding the past, but i'm afraid . I'm afraid of things will change after i asked you . i will so unhappy without knowing it . i have been wanting to ask you since a long time ago, but i just dont have the courage . :( I'm scare that one day i will lose control of myself and everything will change immediately . Can you teach me how and what i should do ? I always told myself not to do this and that, but actually i wanted to do it very much . Just because that i am afraid . This feelings sucks !

Well, prelims are coming and i have been studying and revising ! ^^v such a good girl i am isnt it ? ^^v of course, i study hard and play hard too ! ^^v going picnic on this sunday with Luckystar, Li Ni and Lester ! ^^v and going to watch esclipe with HuiSi on monday ! ^^v and soon, my oral are coming near ! T-T I am really very very scare ! :(( i scare i fail and my life will be gone, truly gone . :((

I need support from you .

It really fell .

2010-06-19T15:45:00.015+08:00

Went Night Safari on 16 June . It was fun ! ^^v but some places are really very scary . :S it is dark plus got bats flying around . :S As you can see, the photo are dark and cannot see anything, cause we are not allowed to use flash . but there are some we used flash ans will be uploaded next time . ^^v

Photos on my birthday - credit to A.huiSi, L.XiuTing and luckystar . I took it from facebook and blog . hahahaha . ^^v but some i was unable to take, i dont know why . :( i lazy to rotate some !

Photos on Amanda.N's birthday on 9 June 2010 - credit to luckystar again . ^^v Some of the pictures, i couldnt take too . :( I lazy to rotate some too !

Train with Luckystar to Vivo City -- Bused to Haw Par Villa - Bused to Vivo City -- Cabbed back to Har Par Villa -- Bused back to Vivo City -- Bused Home Sweet Home !

I am really exhausted on that day ! :((

Hold me up, hold me tight, lift me up to touch the sky .

TAGGIES~

3ryan - :)

Triscilla- ?

Empty Heart .

2010-06-12T14:08:00.019+08:00

Treat or Trick ?

Is my dream a sweet dream or a nightmare that you gave me ?
Please, dont let my hopes fall .
Few more days to go, hang in there, could you ?

TAGGIES~

L.Xiuting- Hello my dear! I love your blog! Not as dead as CYC's.

Triscilla- hahaha, thank you . ^^v

Shopping Spree .

2010-06-06T21:51:00.010+08:00

Went to Bugis for shopping with Yew Ching today and i spent quite a lot of money and i'm going to spent money tomorrow for sending some gifts to Australia ! :I The both of us walked in the bugis street for very long, as i was finding a bag, but i cannot find it at all and it delayed my time as we went to singpost wanting to send those stuffs over to Australia, yet the singpost was closed at 4pm today and we were late by 28 mins ! T-T so we are going over tomorrow again la ! TSK !

Aren't this cute ?! i bought for my little sister ! ^^v

How nice, if time could stop whenever i want ?

TAGGIES~
RuYan- hahah ! OKAY ! I WILL BE WAITING WITH EXCITMENT ! ^^v

Feeling bliss . ^^v

2010-06-06T03:14:00.008+08:00

Lots of LOVE surrounding me .

I feel very bliss and happy these few days . ^^v I think i was very happy since 2 months ago . ^^v Since that day, every single of my days are brighten up, seriously . I was even more happy of what my clique had done for me since two days ago . ^^v but please tell me the whole story soon ! Especially, my luckystar, as you are the one that know the full story ! ^^v one month later, you must tell me okay ! cause i told you the cake thingy le ! ^^v

Those birthday wishes, bottles of stars and hearts, sweets and snacks, they put a BIG BIG SMILE ON MY FACE NOW . i will treasure it ! once again, thank you . ^^v

Went to find Xiu Ting to watch the Incredibles Tales and Ghost Whisper just now, as i dont dare to watch alone, especially i'm staying at my mummy's house ! :x

Ate dinner with Wei Xin before finding Xiu Ting, we ate stingray and prawns ! ^^v (Y) Accompany her, actually is she accompany me, to the swimming pool for her brother's swimming lesson and we had fun talking for those hours ! ^^v hahahah .
Going out with Yew Ching ~~tomorrow~~today, as it is already 3 plus am and i just cannot sleep and i'm watching televison + blogging + music + ipod touch = awesome . ^^v

OFFICIALLY 16 .

2010-06-05T02:19:00.007+08:00

I turned 16, like finally . ^^v I'M GROWING UP AND NOT GETTING OLD, PLEASE . ^^v I am able to watch NC 16 movies now ! ^^v Thank you to those people that wished me through messages, fb and those cards . I APPRECIATE A LOT ! ^^v

Thank you, my lovely clique, i was truly VERY SURPRISE . there are really no loopholes ! ^^v i know you guys had made a lot of efforts for this by making bottles of stars and hearts for me and going around asking people to write birthday wishes for me . AND I KNOW YOUR HANDS ARE SORE AFTER MAKING THOSE STARS AND HEARTS . ^^v THANK YOU . ^^v

Isnt this box nice ? but inside, it doesnt seem sooo . :x

These are the things that were found in the box ! exclude the sour grapes sweet .

and these fox sweets too ! ^^v

so in the box, it looked like this, actually it was more messy than ever ! and this is where you guys' birthday wishes are ! and i had to search for it !

Presents from my clique ! ^^v LOVELY . ^^v

Birthday wishes ! ^^v

Ang Hui Si, Chan Yew Ching, Lam Xiu Ting, Sim Ru Yan, Amanda Ang, Teo Zhi Xiong, Ho Wei Lin, Wong Kin Harng, Amabel Chang, Lee Yun Cui, Lamont Tan, Aaron Chua, Eric Leong, Jonathan Wong, Ryan Tan, Adeon Ng, Bryan Han, Joleen Ng, Charles Ho, Pakhrin Tan, Claire Lum and Wong Shu Hui .

THANK YOU ! ^^v

THESE ARE THE FAKE WISHING CARDS ! ^^v

More pictures will be uploaded . ^^v

I was totally shocked, seriously . I cried, because i was too touched . :x it was AN AWESOME DAY WITH AWESOME SURPRISE PARTY HELD BY MY AWESOME CLIQUE AND THOSE WISHES AND CARDS THAT I RECEIVED BY MY AWESOME FRIENDS ! ^^v YOU GUYS ROCK . ^^v LOVE YOU, PEOPLE TTM ! ^^v .

This picture describle how i am feeling now . ^^v

And guess what ? My wishes really come true and not only once . ^^v

313 .

2010-05-31T18:55:00.012+08:00

Fills my life with colours .

Went 313 for shopping today .
Bought 2 tops at cotton on .
Was suppose to buy 3, but i can't find the 3th piece, so forget it .
maybe going bugis one day to buy the 3th piece, as it is where i saw it .
GREAT SINGAPORE SALES, I LOVE YOU ! ^^v

SCHOOL RUINS OUR HOLIDAY ! :((

Seriously, i dont really know what is wrong with you and what you want from me . You are the one that ask me that question and i replied you the answer and you are not happy with the answer i replied, then you scolded me ? or said me ? What did i do or say wrong ? i dont find that i am in the wrong ? That is my answer and is the fact, you not happy then not happy la . ZZZ !

FUN ! ^^v

2010-05-30T19:49:00.019+08:00

I realise that i have eyebags through these two of photos ! i dont understand why i can have eyebags when i sleep for so long everyday ! T-T

Ugly me . haha .

I find this more ugly laaa . BTW, I AM NOT POINTING MIDDLE FINGER .

Had a fun day in school on the phototaking that day ! ^^v Thanks Xiu Ting for lending me the ROUND NERD SPECTS ! ^^v I LOVE IT VERY MUCH LAAA ! Hoildays are here ! ^^v But need to study too . :I There are lots of events coming up !

-Movie nights at Xiu Ting's house !
-Wild wild wet with Clique !

-Night Safari with Lini, Kin Harng and Xi Zhe !

-Science Center with Clique !

-Shopping with Clique !

-Study session with Lini and maybe Kin Harng and XiZhe, if the both of them can find time !

and many more ! ^^v

LASTLY, SHOPPING WITH YEWCHING AND HUISI TOMORROW . now is GREAT SINGAPORE SALES, A GREAT TIME TO SHOP AND BUY ! ^^v

Went for Primary School GB camo yesterday, but i wemt home early as i am not feeling well . :( But it was fun though and thanks Amanda and Jolene for the presents, although i had a hard time opening them . haha . ^^v

Tomorrow is O level chinese paper, sad that i am not taking this year . :(( JYS PEOPLE, YOU GUYS CAN MAKE IT ! ^^v

Am i the only one ?

I hope i am .

TAGGIES~

L.Xiuting - YES YES YES ! MORE TO COME NEXT WEEK ! ^^v

NICE .

2010-05-23T01:30:00.004+08:00

Watched this at Xiu Ting's house . ^^v
Its a nice show . I love the ending .

I'm hungry now ! T-T
Going to boil water for my cup noodles . :I

AND I AM SERIOUSLY VERY FED UP WITH MY THIS STUPID COMPUTER !
Pity me pleaseeeeeeeee . :(

Times really flies fast . 15 years of my life, i been studying, playing, feeling happy, sad . Everything . I'm turning 16 soon . I am growing up ! NOT OLD . NC 16, here i come ! ^^v Is like, i just stepped into secondary school life yesterday, yet its been 3 years and a few months . Life is really short and fast, without our knowing . My life is full of colours with wonderful and awesome people surround me . ^^v Soon, those national important exams are on the way of coming to find us and stress us . :S JY people, i know we can make it . ^^v

i'm happy with the current situation now .
i know that i cannot be greedy this time, if not i will lose you once again .

Tired .

2010-05-22T20:19:00.007+08:00

Went out with Ru Yan . Carls junior and East Coast park .

WE SAW A HANDSOME & TALL ANGMOR ! ^^v

My sushi is NICE & ADDICTING .

June holiday is coming & i love it !

Night Safari soon ! ^^v

Going to find Xiu Ting laterr ! ^^v

btw, i'm fed up with my computer now !

GG .

2010-05-01T14:35:00.011+08:00

Exams period now ! T-T Monday is a hoilday, but it dont make any difference . still need to study . T-T My english paper one, i think i will fail . T-T i nearly cried, when i see the questions, i dont know what to write seriously . Chinese paper one, was okay, but i scare that i will write out of point . hope not ! :I My Poa and Combine science CMI . T-T

I knew something yesterday and i was very happy knowing it . ^^v hohohohoho . ^^v but i feel that i loss and gain everytime . :( i dont want to loss, but i want to gain, i know i am selfish, but..... :(

Oh, remember that ? I hope you do, because i do . ^^v

You are amazing, truly amazing . ^^v

TAGGIES~

.XiuTing - hahaha . yea ! ^^v

-AHXINN - yea, told you !

Happy or sad ending ?

2010-04-25T13:45:00.014+08:00

More pictures of yesterday . ^^v

Clique Photo ! I love this picture very much ! ^^v

I think i am unglam in this photo ! T-T

This is not shadow ! ^^v

There are still many photos, but i am lazy to upload ! :((

Btw, Ru yan, stop guessing about it as you are not going to guess and know the secret of it, we wont tell you . :P i know you want to tag my blog, but you can't . i also dont know why cannot . SAD . :((

Everthing have to come to the end, nothing goes on forever . Lets just end it now. I dont want to sink in deeper and deeper in . Really, i had enough of jealousy, i dont like that feelings at all . Jealousy makes me want to end up the friendship with you, but somehow i dont bear to . I hate myself of not deciding in the first place and that is why we ended up this way . Hopefully, i wont get jealous now . You get on with your life while i get on with my life . Without you, i still can get on with my life . I know i can . How i wish i could erase those memories that i spent with you, no matter is happy or sad, i dont need them in my mind and keep reminding me of you .

Did i really miss that chance ?

Even i did not miss that chance,

i think nothing will happen too,

i did not feel sad or what .

Even until now,

i have no feelings .

If what they say is true,

then i am sorry that i did not sort out my feelings earlier,

and that is why we miss our chance of being together .

but even until now,

i still dont know my feelings for you yet .

I am making a big sacrifice for you,

do you know that ?